30 years old....

i wanted to make a summary of my life, after few months am gonna be 31 years old, like officially an adult somehow, i've always seen people over 30 as old..now that i reach this age am a little confused....
i was wondering how to evaluate our life, how can i say am successfull or not? is it regarding to the job, money or family??
elhamdoulillah, i have an amazing job.... for most of the people it seems to be a pleasant or enjoyable job, for me it's a passion, teaching is what i can do without getting bored, i even cannot explain why? it's just a part of me... travelling is a chance sometimes the conditions are hard but at the end it's always an experience that make me grow up.... but in 6 years working in the same company no real evolution.. is it the moment to look for another opportunity, or should i be satisfied coz am enjoying the job? i really don't know.....
money is always the forbidden subject, thanks to God i've been blessed... and i don't have to complain about this.
family.... the big word... actually i cannot even find how to describe this, i've met many people with who i could start a family, but everytime for differents reasons it's just failed... for a long time i was thinking that love is the most important thing, and with this we can do anything, but recently i discovered that somehow am selfish, so many sacrified have to be done but am not ready for this....
a relationship is a contract and some understanding to make the life of others easier and happier... but what will happend if i'm not ready to change my job, or move to another place... so many ideas are rushing in my head and i don;t know how it's gonna be

i don t know where is my mistake ? what did i do wrongly, i just hope inchAllah everything is gonna be fine

Feelings around me....

I'M MISSING YOU

Author: Angel Joy

Why can't I speak when I have so much to tell?
Why can't I write when I have so much in mind?
Why can't I sing when there's music in my heart?
Why can't I dance when there's rythm in the air?

Too many words left unspoken
Too many things left undone
Why can't it be and why can't I?
For all I know this pain deep inside
Took the gladness from my heart.

Is this the pain of missing you?
Is this the reason behind it all?

Hear the agony of my heart
Longing for you and for your touch
Feeling your lips, feeling your face
Missing your kisses and warm embrace.

When will the waiting ever be over?
For as long as were apart I can never be whole
Oh! My Dearest Love
I just want you to know
That my heart is aching because
"I'M MISSING YOU!"


Source: Internet

memory......

Jordan....pearl of the middle east

i just came back from jordan, for the second time in six months, i feel in love with that place.
i enjoyed Amman, and it's multiple hills, the city colour make it relaxing even if the traffic jam show us how big it is.
most of the houses , building or art contruction are white, beige or very light brown, so if u have a look to one of the hills it will be pretty homogenous and nice!!.
i enjoyed the leffing( visiting from arabic word but with english using) from abdoun to all the circles, visiting many malls or just enjoying the walking all along mecca mokaram street.
Jordan is not only Amman, but it's a weather, with great blue sky and sunny time, sometimes u can expereince some tropical showers which will make u confuse the place with some african cities, Jordan is also known by its people, from what i heard they are nice and very calm, from what i've seen they are friendly, funny and warm, Jordan is also spices, smells and food... i've been surpised by trying some dishes like maqlouba or mensaf, pretty tasty with a strong mix of spices and milk product, it's true that the effect is a feeling of food happiness but we can find this in most of arabic traditionnal food.
on my first trip to Jordan, i've been to some places, like petra the anthic, when we arrive there we can feel how hot is the weather, and at that moment we are looking for the breeze to chill out, but the sun is most of the time very strong.. during our walking the rocks start to have some shapes an just like taking us on a trip to the 6th centery BC, and try to imagine how the nabateans have been living... when we reach the siq we just feel totally excited by the beauty of the site, the intelligence of those people and everytime i think about it i just feel happy and zen. Petra is a one day trip, if we want to claim every rock and to get the best view.
i've been to Jarash, i like this part of my trip because it was a lonely trip my camera, my bag and me, taking the bus alone for few miles trip to dicover the romain side of this country, for sure i feel sometimes in Tipaza (algeria) or Roma, the site is so well protected over the time i can even review in my mind Arthemis Temple or the amphiteather, when i attended the romain show i had the feeling that if now our army was a group of gladiators few wars result will be different..
Jordan is also the Dead sea, the first step into the water are always the one we remember, it might be too cold or suprisingly warm, we don t need to know how to swim, in the dead sea it become just sooo easy, but when i went out it was tickeling , the salt became too itchy to handle. i think that this sea is famous all over the world for its therapeutical effects, but the most amazing there is the sunset moment when you look the the otherside and you are not sure where the sun is going, when u surprise the bright color on the water, it's the best scenery ever. i've been many times there, and every moment i asked myself what's happening on the otherside? are people happy? are they enjoying this salty water? no answer for now, but i do feel their pain when the sun is gone and no more light.

Jordan is also a language, i'm an arabic person who doesn't use her arabic language this much, no real reason for that but it's a fact, but when i arrived to Jordan i just felt happy to be an arab and i did my best to speak with my accent, my words, to provide some parts of my tradition and culture, and if it made some people laugh it's just better.

I love Jordan, i just hope i can go there again and spend more time visiting some new places and meeting more people!!!