Have you ever had the impression that your head is boiling when actually you are just seating down with your family?
this is how it is for me on daily basis, wherever i am, my head is full with noise, questions, stories imagined by me, and after awhile i could even believe them.
and when i get back to my sense, and get out of my head i feel exhausted, sad, and overwhelmed.
it has been 9 years since my surgery, and i had difficult moments, but this year feels to be the hardest, i am unable to manage my feelings, i am hypersensitive around people and honestly being called drama queen doesn't help.
my anxiety came back, my mood swings are way too frequent and i feel the need to leave everything behind.
i know it is a temporary moment, and i can only feel better, but sometimes to noise in my head is louder than my own voice and i am tired to fight.
i realized through the years that i am the only one that can face this and that sometimes i must close on myself to protect myself , anyway elhamdoullah always
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