Happy New Year? Happy New Day?
with time i get lazy with all these celebrations, i prefer random messages during the year wishing you an amazing moment, or doing a silent prayer in the middle of the night because i care about you and i know you need it.
but this is not today's subject, today i said something to myself, "building your life activities around one person"
to be honest, this is one of my biggest weakness, if i love someone, i would put all of me my happiness my energy my everything around this person, unfortunately when this person doesn't react in the same may as in the beginning or before my whole construction collapses and me with it.
it is scary to realize that i might have been wrong my whole life, ( not all the 45 years might be the latest year only) and it feels hard to correct it.
I could see the plan and the discipline/commitment required and this might me the solution to what is hurting most on my daily life.
yet i wonder if i could do it by myself. writing this i feel my throat getting smaller and painful. this is gonna be a long journey!!!
let's see!!
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