Disconnected from this world

 elhamdoullah, if this come to an end it was a great adventure,

today, i celebrate my one year at my job, yes time flies but actually i have seen this time passing, the last year was rich of experiences, learning, frightening moments and amazing ones.

and i found myself thinking that if this was the end it's ok no regret and i would be happy of all what i have achieved.

in the same time i realized that i could say this to every little part of my life, i have met people and lost them through time and i feel ok with that, it was good the time it lasted.

i feel that i don't have a connection to anything in this world, i mean i could lose everything i still feel ok.

am i the same person that would cry if i scratch my car? yeah same person, differetn reactions but inside i know that those tears are from frustration and not from sadness.

i hope Allah will make me as disconnected from this world as possible.

i want to be able to say good bye and move to next thing as smooth as possible

fiha kheir inchallah

New Month.. any plans?

 Finally January is over, elhamdoullah, it was a year long month feeling.

to be honest, many things happened during January, but on my emotions it was smoother, not because things got better, or may be a little because things got better, but somehow i understood that there are things i cannot fight or change, and i just need to be patient and time will bring the best.

so any plan for February? not really, considering that Ramadhan is coming in the next 18 days inchallah, i wonder what should be my resolutions for the sacred month? i don't feel strong enough to share them here this is sure.

things change in a quick way, and we don't realize it , actually i see it i feel it i realize it, but many times i just shut up about it, even if it would eat me slowly slowly, and sometimes it is the best to do.

so let's this 2026 year finally start, and let me wish to myself and amazing and successful year ahead.

fiha kheir inchallah