How to surrender to God?

 may be since covid, the time i really realized that everything can change in a blink of an eye, i started understanding that God is the one knowing everything and he is the one who has written our path, ho knows why he would send blessing to us and when to put us in a difficult environment.

but i also understood the meaning of god won't put a soul in something it cannot face, so on daily basis when i believe that i am lost or things are hard and i cannot do it, i remind my self that God doesn't make mistake and if i am here it means i will be able to face it, and move on.

yet, we cannot be always strong, sometimes understanding that our situationship is a test from God takes time, so we cry, we complain, we wonder why.. and then we give up when actually we should look for the signs, we should understand that what ever we are facing we are seeing we are doing it has been written by god and he won't put more on us if we cannot face it.

elhamdoullillah, God loves us, even when we are lost even when everything is overwhelming us, but the moment we turn to Him the moment we ask for his help for his support the moment we really surrender, we can feel that our heart feels safer and starting to relax, we start to realize that it was a small difficulty and things are better, slowly slowly.

now in my opinion for  a better life, the more the overwhelming period is short the better is , the quicker we get back to God the better is.

it is human to believe that we are the most lonely person, the most unlucky the unlovable or the one that cannot do anything, but it is not true, our daily achievement are a proof of it.

in another hand we should not ignore the signs we receive, even if sometimes it is easier.

Emotions are messengers

 i heard this today every emotion is bringing a message, and i loved it,

as human we should be able to listen to the message without judging it, and how an amazing feeling to feel heard to feel understood.

with myself , many times i ignore the emotions that can come overwhelming me, joy or sadness or just feeling meh, sometimes i am too tired to listen to the messages i am receiving from my self and most of the time it doesn't end up well, if i don't manage my own emotions i might explode in someone else face, is it what i want of course no, is it the consequence yes sure.

having some unfinished business when it comes to emotions is not a good idea.

but seriously, can you see emotions are messages, everytime you feel not happy with something or not comfortable or annoyed you are sending a message to the people around you, yes then it will depend on the maturity of the people around you, some of them will see it before you name it, some other will listen and understand and obviously there will be the judging ones, those that would take it as an agressive feeling toward them.

can we agree that the best way to be is to avoid taking anything personally, if my behavior changes 180° the message is i am not ok, i might be lost or scared or just confused, but it doesn't mean i don't respect you, i don't like you, i resent you, when i am deep in my anxiety when i feel that the world is against me and i am the only girl in this world, i don't need someone to make it personal about him and blame me for my behavior.

anxiety makes you believe that you are alone, that everything is going bad and you cannot help it, just keep in mind that this is temporary, you will see the bluesky again and enjoy it, chocolate or ice cream are your best friend, and sometimes there will be a song that will take you out of that strange feeling that you don't matter and you can't do anything.

my emotions are my strenght and my weakness, but they are messages i am sending , and the most important is having people around ready to listen, translate, interpret without judging.