In Love with him!!

 To you the soul who took my heart, 

you the one who saw my soul, and my mind

you the one that will never read these words, 

you the one who taught me that is useless to worry for everything, and it is better to keep your energy for happy moments,

you the one who made me appreciate tea without mint, rock music in tamashek and who pushed me to learn guitare.

you the man in blue, you the free man or the man in my heart.

maybe somedays our path may be separated, and i am not ready for that.

all what i can say: ariki houlan houlan

Writing with AI

 Today, i had an interesting experience, i have asked chatgpt to define a viral linkedin post. i have received as an answer a list of 7 topics that could go viral on the net, and even how to develop them.

Then He or It asked me if i want a draft of a viral style linkedin either on my telecom/training expertise or a personnal/human storytelling. obviously i have asked for both.

And what to say about the result... it was perfect, i felt i could have written this in a less perfect way in a less waw result, in the same time i realized that most linkedin posts are AI generated, now to be honest i do use AI to re write my emails (most of the time)you could see even here in my blog i do mistakes while typing , but the essence of the email is from me, are my words.

is it fair to be strong on a platform by using AI, i can see those coming saying that of course AI is a tool and being strong by using the right tools is perfectly normal, yet where is our own touch?

will i write a post or a blog using AI of course no, even if blogger is suggesting that i could use the new beta feature, i am not interested, i write to express my self, i write to heal myself i write because this is an exercise that i enjoy.

i would never fight AI, i will always use it to help on my daily tasks but i cannot present a work done by AI and consider it as mine.

I love to see a personal touch in everything, this is me!!!

June 9th 2025

 a date to remember!!

as special as October 7th was, June 9th is important.

when you bring food to a sick person you might be intercepted, arrested or kidnapped by the IOF!!! on international waters.

what is this? the freedom flotilla have been stopped on its route to gaza, bringing food to starving people, to break the siege around Gaza and save the humans there.

what are we doing on the other side of the world? what am i doing? scrolling in a sick way, checking on them, then living my life, drinking coca cola? no that i have stopped but i can see it in some many places i get sick.

what if we get out of the bubble that we have constructed around us, and see what is our impact on this awful situation, yes we cannot all fly to egypt, but how about stop using anything that can hurt the Palestinians.

• McDonald’s-- hichem cook is your best friend

• Coca Cola-- hamoud or how about you eat a fruit

• Burger King-- House of burger is available in many cities

• Papa John’s- mega pizze/liverpool

• Pizza Hut-- again mega pizza/liverpool

• Domino's Pizza again again mega pizza/liverpool

• axa - SAA/Caat/caar/Gam

• HP--Lenovo

 just do something!!

Crying as a response... will consume me!!!

 I don't cry in important moments, funerals or any sad moments with family etc... but i cry if someone would say a thing that would push me away, i cry when i talk to myself and i feel lost, i cry when i am scared to end up alone.

we have been told that crying would wash our eyes, and i repeat this to myself, but i know inside of me that if i cry it means something is broken.

sometimes i don't find the right words to answer to express, and it is ok, i am learning to think and understand before to react but my tears are always ready unfortunately to show off to run down my face, to be honest i feel good after crying out but sometimes i think i should be stronger, anyways, i will never be perfect but i learn everyday! 

Palestine - who is the hero?

 i have worked for big companies, for more than 18 years, these companies were known internationally for their values, the first one was Chinese so basically, if you have an idea about Chinese culture that was the predominancy, we did not have much room about inclusion or diversity, unless if you are a customer ( let me say that in the last 4 years their behavior has changed since they needed to be implemented in more countries). But then the second one is European, with high values, all about inclusion and diversity, then October 7th happened, and somehow the inclusion and diversity was not about Palestinian, it was never about Gaza, and i started asking myself, if i do boycott big companies of food and clothing etc.. how can i boycott my company? should i leave my work? and tried to have discussion like this with people around me, and most of the feedback i have got were it is the same everywhere unless you will work for a local company.

so i started hating myself, because my company did not reach to my values, and seeing ibtihal today facing her boss, exposing him, putting everything at risk i felt ashamed, i don't work for Microsoft but i worked for a company that did not recognize Palestine, or Palestinians, and that disturbed me a lot, having the courage to put your life in God's hand is the highest proof of courage someone can show. (btw i have left that company)

We won't lose anything when we are on the right side.

If government force out any company working against Palestinians we might have a big impact.   

I have no idea how politics work, but i know that people movement can never stay unnoticed.

I don't write when i am happy?

 it has been awhile, and somehow i feel ashamed for not writing for such a long time, but it seems that when i feel good, i feel happy i don't get the urge to put down words.

elhamdoullah, the last three months have been full of change, new job, two trips, attending some concerts, taking care of my spirits in ramadhan, 

if i have to be 100% honest , i was not happy all the time, during ramadhan i was scared to lose my mind once again, and get lost, it needed a lot of discipline to be able to feel ok everyday, still from time to time i had that loneliness poping up and reminding me that there is no miracle.

anyways life is about challenges and pushing myself to be better, let's work on it!!

When was the last time you felt anything for real?

 

I saw this question on IG and got a bit confused, and just seat down thinking….

I felt pain yesterday after my gym training, trying new exercises with my coach, and then not being able to walk or get down the stairs

I felt sad, last Thursday, I had my expectations too high and got sad and disappointed,

I felt loved, in someone eyes and smile, in someone voice, he sang my name over the stars and the moon

I felt excited, to prepare a gift for a dear friend

I felt happy, when I was able to sing my favorite song

I felt happy when I felt pain after the gym, my body is alive and reacting

I felt scared , when driving in an unknown road in the dark night

Few years ago, I heard about mindfulness, and actually I started focusing on all what I do, what I feel to the fullest.

Sometimes it might seem difficult, but doing this made me able to remember moments that matter.

always ask yourself why are you feeling anything like this? Why is your best friend!!

ciao

 

2024 what a year?

 for more than a decade i used to make photo summaries of my past year, it was a way for me to keep to most vivid memories and reflect everytime i would see a picture on a moment or an event.

Yet , when covid arrives, i have stopped doing that realizing that some times, memories must fade out, and also it became tiring to select the right shot, then print it out and arranging in a way it would mean something for me.

2024 has been a real rollercoaster for me

January: a colleague has passed away in an unpredictable way, it did affect me.

February: i realized that friendship can be full of love, and if this love is not both way, i will suffer to the bone ( panic attacks are no fun)

March: Happiness of Ramadhan yet scariness of Anxiety i was happy and sad in the same time

April: reached the bottom of feeling bad , of loneliness of not speaking not being me

May: realized that i am stronger i can face it and i can fight it, and if you feel that i am too much for you i will just leave

June: realized that alone i cannot be hurt and that's enough for me

July : felt in love 14 years later and had the best 24 hours in the last 11 years , i have met my love, my soulmate

August: happiness in a hot weather and long walk friend connection

September: back on hiking , getting stronger

October: got lost in Paris and lost my friend my coach, my mentor

November: big decision era, and back to Djanet , Sefar experience , felt in love with the scenery , the people the music.

December: preparing the exit, in love, stronger

Elhamdoullah for everything!! as difficult as it was, 2024 was full of learning.

I lost people that i miss everyday, but sometimes the timing is wrong!!

Crazy Delusional Ambitions?

End of the year, time for wrap up either in our life or on spotify, and also time for new resolutions and decisions, at least for most of the people, but are you that kind of the population with crazy delusional ambitions? in another word, are you the one looking for big and amazing resolutions to be alive?

so 2025, i will go to the gym 5 days a week i will do the miracle morning and be gluten free, obviously i will keep my gym to twice a week, i will oversleep everytime i can and i will keep my kessra in my life because that is happiness.

I have reached a moment in my life, i don't lie to my self, i know what i cannot do, even if most of the time i don't know what i want.

dreaming is an amazing feeling, I will go to Japan, i will re visit San Fransisco or New york, these are ambitions that are realistic for me since it just depend on me being proactive on preparing visa and planning a trip, but anything from above if i don't believe it i won't commit.

be nice to your self, be honest with your self, be positive to you; then plan whatever is good for you, at least this is what i do!!

am i ambitious? i don't think so, and it is fine, all what i want to peace of mind

and Elhamdoullah for now!!

Sefar-- City of Djinns -- is it true?

 Hi

are you the kind of person that would believe in supernatural situation? have you ever seen ghosts? heard noises when you know that no one is there? have you ever played spirit being younger?

I am not a fan of anything like that, i don't know how or if i believe in any of these, the furthest i went on supernatural things is watching an american series in the 90es called the tales of the crypt.

but then i went to Sefar. 

On the 4th day of the trip, we had the possibility to skip the morning walk, and stay int he camp, so me with my two friends decided to have a slow morning, just to arrange the tent have a quick shower at the guelta and relax.

no need to say that the water in guelta was fresh and cold but the feeling to have a quick shower was really nice and we enjoyed the conversation all together.

once done , we heard someone singing, and we have seen 3 guys on the other side of the rocks, they asked if they could pass and we said yes since we were done with the water.

3 guys: the first with long hair singing, the second shirtless and the third one with white formal shirt and black trousers, we even asked each other if this guy was coming from office.

we exchanged few words just like how are you , how is your trip and they kept walking toward our camp, for a second we asked our self if we have seen real people but then how can we have the same vision at the same time.

2 days later we reached IJABAREN the highest place of our trip and also the last night there , and we crossed some other group, and in that group we could find the 3 guys, we were finding that fun to re-meet them again, but then they did not seem to recall us? weird? so you would meet 3 ladies in the middle of the desert and not remember them. why not? whatever?

last week during a diner with our guide, we start talking about our trip and i mentioned the fact that we have met 3 people twice and something is weird about their circuit, and he was telling me this is impossible, we started checking , calling people, and it seems that those 3 people when we were in the guelta for our morning relaxing they were still in algiers, so ....... so..... yeah there is no so.

you can have the conclusion you want!!

then if you decide to go to Sefar remember that you cannot trust your eyes!! always check whatever you are seeing!!

2024 the year of challenges--- one of them -- Visiting SEFAR

 Hi 

i am back, from an incredible adventure, i went beyond my limits and believes. somehow, losing NAssima ( allah yerhamha) in a very surprising way made me feel the need to fly away, to try anything that might scares me to go beyond myself.

Sefar was a dream, Sefar was an ambition, actually, Sefar was a motivation to keep practicing sport during the year, to go hiking several times a year, and to register to the trip.

i felt crazy, walking this much, climbing when needed, sliding when asked for, i was scared to loose control, to fall down, to break something, but elhamdoullah everything went well.

i was strong enough to manager my body and help him to walk this much, i had an amazing group around me for the positive vibes and the caring.

and of course the scenery was just breath taken, i loved the colors, the shapes, the path, even if i have complained about always going up or that the path was not flat enough, yet... my eyes are full of magics.

and then finally the music, the rythmes, the mix of dancing fire and shininng moon with the guitare and percussion that was perfert.

i felt in love once again with djanet, its people and life.

may be one day i will be ready to talk about the details