we are not safe anymore!!

 being a woman is a gift and a curse

a woman is a life carrier, the heart of the home, the base of the family, but being a woman you will discover that every problem or bad situation might be your fault

4 women have been assaulted and raped for 2 hours in a government residency and no one heard anything, no one helped.

we are not safe anywhere !!

for many years already, i don;t go out, walking in the streets, or to the beach by myself, i cannot stand the unrespectful comments nor the behavior of a certain category of guys, but with what happened today, this means for me i cannot plan to work in another city of my country.

and i get scared by this situation, are we supposed to carrier arms to protect our selves are we supposed to be ready to fight 24/7? this amount of stress is unbelievable ... i might be an optimistic person with a lot of positive energy, but right now i am loosing hope in the future

Rabbi y djib elkheir 

high with love

Hello everyone,

yeah it has been forever, writing has became a luxury for me, 2020 main impact is becoming lazy with myself and the best procrastinator ever,

but i am here, today, sharing a happy feeling, sharing the enormous amount of love i have received this week.

i gave my first hugs of 2021, somehow i feel like doing a big sin and I feel quite shy about it, but then I was sooooo in need of that feeling that connection, I am an emotional person that love people connection and hugs are the best drugs ever in this world.

so let me tell you about it, last week an amazing soul took the responsibility to take me out of my home and drive me around my favorite places ( without him knowing this point) just to make me feel ME again, to bring energy and smiles around me, we went to city center enjoyed a lunch outside, and I was like a tourist in some famous landmark i did not take pictures, but i was watching the people around , seeing their life, how they are talking and moving around, i liked that energy, and i have to say that my host was amazingly interesting, surprising and a great listener, to be honest it was the best time i have had for a long long time.

After this i have decided that being under lockdown for such a long time is not the best way to be myself and i should cherish any opportunity to meet new people and grow

today was quite special, i shared a moment at the beach with my closest friend , sharing who we are and how life impacted us on the last 16 years, and to get the best from the future how uncertain it can be , empty beach , wavy sea, and best friend life cannot be better than this.

but i wanted more, i went to an expo fair for women , entrepreneur and those working with their hands, and i have met the wonderful HALA, physically, she is not too tall, not small, not big not too thin, she is a beautiful woman, mentally, she is magical, she knows how to use words to tell you about her adventure, how simple it was, she brought her herbs and rocks, her maps and travelling journal to show us how it is done, when you open to read you can feel when the ideas were ready and when it was going with the flow, you can see her drawing, and pictures, and her voice is the sweetest i could hear, she gave me the most genuine hugs i could have, i love listening to her stories, to her adventures, with simple things she can take you to a far far away land, i beleive that we need more people like HALA in our Life.

and by the end of the day, i have met Randa, the lady with the most amazing heart, always ready to give to people, always available to help, support and advice. Randa is a beautiful source of hard working with a pinch of humor and fun, i am so thankful , she took time to talk to me , to encourage me, and push me to move forward and look for my next adventure, yeah yeah Netflix and chill it's cool but it seems it is time to MOVE

I received so much love during the last week, i am floating with happiness, life is easy, a simple hug, smile or message is enough to bring the best of us!!

Much Love from me to you!!

2020 the turning point....may be

 I have lost my job........

It has been 40 days , i was thinking it's ok, i am handling it well , and even if i am smiling everyday and working on what looks like my future, the information did not kick in yet.

in this pandemic situation, the transition from worker to jobless was quiet smooth, since i kept working in the same desk , on the same subject.

i wonder how it would have been if we were not working from home, i wonder if my empty desk would have been noticed, on that part since i used to travel a lot everyone get used to my empty chair.

for 15 years, i got excited to meet new customers, reach surprising destinations, and share my knowledge, and inside of me i am confused, am i able to do it all by myself, can i shine in front of people and help them to improve their skills

2020 has been a crazy year, i did not have big expectations, but just wished to be surprised, i think we can agree i got surprised.

facing this situation, i found myself overworking for 5 or 6 days in a row, then to wonder in my head and not being sure what is next.

it is stressful, loosing that kind of stability, i hear people saying this is a great opportunity to be a freelancer to start your own business to change your path, but do i want that?

i have always said, i work by pleasure and passion, and that is a luxury!!! is it time to take risk to do what i want by myself or to apply to that job i could never imagine going for.

the truth is i am confused, people are saying your have to go out of your comfort zone, but actually my comfrot zone is so big, and so comfy it's hard, i have been adding skills and knowledge to my comfort zone to enlarge it as much as possible, and i realize now that as big as i could imagine it , i can increase it, it all depends on me.

i don't know what i am going to do in the future, right now i am trying to get some training opportunities and see how the future is?

inchallah, 2020 is a turning point, i am sure it's a lesson teaching year!!!

keep safe , keep positive, keep smiling!!!

Parapente

Hola Lima!!!

I woke up with an excited heart, i am going to fly over the edge of the city , i am soo scared and in the same time, i cannot wait to be already up the sky.

yesterday they have told me that , they open at 10:30, it's 10:55 and am already there, and you know what no wind, it's a quiet morning, disappointment is all over my face, i have been told to come back at 3pm!

i calm down, enjoy the park, walk around visited two museums, had lunch, and rushed back to the site, and i see them flying, i started overthinking may be too much wind, may be i ate too much i will feel bad, may be i don;t need to go for parapente, skydiving 8 years ago is enough for a lifetime.

but there is always a challenging voice in my head, i cannot help it, i need to go over my fears, specially the flying one.
registration done, i am the only one on the waiting line, i have been assigned my pilot, today it's gonna be Marco!! mucho encantada senor!!!

i got prepared, always security first, a guy explaining to me that i have to keep standing until the signal to seat, but he is speaking in spanish, NO ENTIENTO, Ingles Por favor, and i am lucky he does speak english well, at that moment the wind get a bit stronger, and i see someone missing the landing spot and going for another round , we waited for few minutes for the wind to calm down, and it's the time to run few feet and seat, the monent we leave the mountain cliff i felt we were going down to the ocean, obviously it was just a feeling, we started going up and up tuning around and taking more altitude, we have been flying aver the place i walked in the morning, and even if the place is clean and green, the view from the top is just magiacal, seeing the faro is awesome.

When i thought we would be landing actually we went to the other side of the city, over Larcomar the mall of the area, almost touching the highest bulding, or having the feeling to land on the roof.
after a nice turn, i felt tired, the stress, the all day waling under the sun, i felt overwelmed, it was fun but i had enough for today, i asked if we can land. you can imagine that my pilot was having fun since the conditions of flying were just perfect!!!

landing is quite scarier than the taking off, same principle as an airplane , you have got to visualize the landing line or point, commisario said ok for landing, let's go for it, may be one day i will take a training to fly a parapente by myself, because to be honest despite all the fear i loved it, if any other chance i will go for it inchallah!!!

What makes Lima an amazing city?

Lima, the Peruvian capital, an amazing combining of parallel streets with colorful houses, and garden, parks and playgrounds.
Lima is the cuisine city, ceviche, lomo or chifa!! 4000 types of potatoes, the colorful quinoa, the fresh avocado , amazing tastes, a real variety of colors, and smells.
the moment i have landed at the Jorge Chavez, i got excited, to be honest, the immigration part was not really pleasant, basically they could not find Algeria on their system ( but it's not that important) .
so i was excited, i have got in the taxi with my friend , going to the hotel, feeling the warm weather, seeing big christmas trees in the streets, a lot of buses, noticing the important number of cars, motos and buses .
and suddenly we turned left, and the scenery has changed, smaller houses, clean side walks, walking or jogging people, and all around corporate buildings , defining the financial district.
My room is cute, cozy, comfy all what i wanted to enjoy my staying, after a shower, i went to the office 10 to 15 min walk, and already i have felt that people are happy, i felt weird but that's the first impression.
now i can tell you that after 10 days here, Peruvian people are happy , not stressed as their neighbor from chile, not nervous as the rest of the humans on the earth.

in this city , you can order anything online, many apps and services , in this city perople are caring , when i leave my hotel, the security guy will always give me suggestions on the weather to be sure i won;t be too hot or too cold.

the sun is not always visible , but it's always there, i have got a sunburn on my nose last weekend.

I have tried the carabeen sea, the atlantic ocean, the chinese sea, and this time for the first person i have see the pacific ocean, grey color, fresh temperature, perfect for surfing and playing with waves.

so in Lima , or to be more precise in miraflores, you end up on the top of the mountain to watch the ocean down, an amazing view and feeling, i enjoyed walking all the long the beach on the top and on the bottom of the mountain.

obviously, the best way to visit the city is to walk it, it's a clean environment, and with all the good food, you can just enjoy keeping fit.

Lima is also a culture, a touristic place, between the spanish architecture, the inka ancestors, the war with Chile, and the surprising chinese influence, every little step is a learning moment.

so you will walk a lot, eat well, meet great people , surf, parapente or paragliding , Lima is a gem from South America, come and visit it!!!

have you ever wish to see a dream come true??

we all have dreams or wishes, big or small, fancy or simple... it doesn't matter , these dreams make us wake up in the morning with a target to reach.

sometimes my dream is to go back to the gym as simple as that, sometimes is to eat avocados.

so how about we start planning for them, a simple paper and pen, if you are a nerd you can use you app, if you are girly you get your bullet journal, anyway it doesn't matter, just start, list what you want to do, it can be personal or professional, for each item fix the time, ( how many times you will do it? from when to when?)

give a priority, maybe going to the dentist for your annual visit is more important than getting the latest sneakers or may be not, it depends on you.

your plan your decision.

stick to it!!!and actually this is the most difficult part, the way i do it is for a month for example i get a paper on the wall with the list of what i have to do and everytime i finish my task i put a pin at the end of the month i will check if this task has became on habit or not.

now some dreams need preparation , and financial support and for those take your time, you want to go for an event or to visit a country, start a year ahead, check the budget needed, and see if you can get it in the coming 12 months, buy the ticket, and build the itinerary you want.

it takes time and discipline to see a dream come true but it's not impossible!!!

go for it, don;t be scared the worst scenario is that tomorrow will be exactly the same as today!!! 

I loved.... I Lost

in our daily life, we meet people that can impact our life, with their words, their smile or just the way they are.
and just like that , i sometimes meet amazing soul, that connect and complete my way of being in a smooth and natural way, unfortunately i forget most of the time that the image i send on different events is not the real me, that my broken soul doesn't show itself until the lights are off and the darkness takes the room.

and when that frighten , confused heart and soul try to connect with the person, obviously they will be pushed away, because they are sooo different from the energetic, positive, motivating person they have seen.

there are two people in me, the smiling energetic that tries to give her best to everyone and make them feel good, and the broken soul that will try to connect to the closest person.

if you love me, and i love you, it means i have to be me, and if me today is sad , confused, scared and not able to express herself, you cannot blame me that i am not smiling and energetic like i can be with a total stranger, it is unfair yes, but life is unfair.

the moment you see the real me, it means you are fully part of my life and you are important

i lost you in a stupid way but i learned that i should  protect myself from those that are not ready to see who i am in the real life.

Thanks for the lesson!!!

I have been told

I have been told that I don’t have dreams I just have goals, and somehow that’s true, I will never dream to have a lomborghini since I know that it cost more than what I can get for a whole life, but I would want to get a nice and comfy car that totally I can afford, but it’s also because I have been lucky to reach my craziest wishes.

1)      Skydive in dubai

2)      See and play with dolphins

3)      Bungee jump in Soweto

4)      Take a helicopter flight

5)      Visit newyork

6)      Watch a broadway show

7)      Be part of an international salsa festival

8)      Learn a martial art

9)      Run a 10k in different cities of the world

10)   Play with elephants and giraffes

I know that the low of attraction is very important and basically if you want something , you can make all the chances from your side and get ready to get it.

But in reality my first goal, wish or dream is happiness, is having that accomplishment feeling and feeling comfortable with yourself.Elhamdoullah

International day of scientific Women and Girls

Yesterday, was the international day of Scientific Women and Girls, I was invited by the awesome club CSCClub of Blida to speak about science and technology in my life.

It’s a pretty difficult subject for me, so I started by stating that I have never seen myself as a scientist, I don’t wear a white apron, I don’t work in a lab I don’t have any chemical reactions to work on, but by being part of the techwomen experience, I have got some exposure to STEM world and I understood that Sceince, engineering, Technology and Mathematics are all related to each others and without one of them it cannot work.

To be a teacher in university, the class is guided by a program and there is a static content, so whatever is happening in the real world, in the class the content is the same, but as a technical trainer, the class will follow the students need to learn to understand, and if a new standard is released it can be discussed, so this stressful world of being on point brings adrenaline for the learning excitement and exhaustion since we are running after improvement.

To control , in order to release that strong feeling of over doing sometimes, I have decided to give back some of my time, give presentation, speeches, and helping anyone that would need to talk or some motivation, and just like that talking to people became a passion.

In that speech I suggested to the audience to give a try to those new technologies that will be part of our life and we will have to adapt to: 5G, smart Cities, IoT, AI, and so on, we all need to get on point with the future.

Since time was limited I finished by my motto my favorite quote: keep positive, keep smiling keep going forward, and if you need anything , you know where to find me.

I wanted to talk about two ladies that have a real impact on my life but I guess that a subject for another time

Being positive!!! ( i wrote it on 17/08/2015)

I have been fighting my whole life to bring positive thinking from people around me.  

The fact that I believe that positive brings positive does push me to smile more and focus on people well being. But still,  is it enough? 

On a daily basis,  being positive what ever the circumstances are,  this is a difficult exercise,  it means we have the aptitude to look over our own sadness and be and focus on happiness only.

many people with say that i am not realistic and more a dreamer, yes i am a dreamer but i am realistic, i know the difficulties that we have to face everyday, trafficjam , everything is getting expensive, paying the rent every end of year, salary is not enough till the end of the month, it costs and arm to have children..... but honestly does enumerating all of this can make you feel well, or bring solutions to your life?

i may make a list of all what is bothering me everyday, but only to find the matching solution, to work on it , or to find the positive part of it.

and by the end of the day when everything went wrong, the positive feeling is elhamdoullah i am alive, and i will live till tomorrow to make it better inchallah.

i do feel all the problems around but if i can make you smile, you just made my day

2018 the year i felt in love with myself!!!

It took me time to accept myself as i am.....
I started the new year stargazing in the desert of Dubai with my best friend, learning about astronomy , far from the fast of lights and loud music, i wanted a low and quiet beginning, focusing on the essential.
i was in love by that day, i was believing that i have found the person that could share my energy, my love and my life, but with time and a lot of hurting i realized that my energy , my love and my life should be focus on myself .
so i have decided to work harder but to get a life, so i re-organized my work to be more efficient during working time ( i started using earphones with my favorite music essentially heavy metal to be disconnected from the environment and focus on the job) so i did not have to work extra time.
i changed my diet, i have lost weight in 2017 but i wanted to maintain it, so no more junk food at least not everyday, i started my day with oatmeal with fruits, peanut butter and yogurt , and when possible whole grain bread, for lunch i would go for yogurt and fruit and dinner since it's the only moment with my family i would eat anything my mom would prepare in the smallest quantity possible, obviously i have started drinking till 2 liters of water per day.
i went back to the gym
i started taking car of my skin, and hairs, going back to the dentist and making sure that i keep my smile on.
if i started looking fit and may be younger ( according to my family, because for me i am still fat , when i was younger i have been told that i had big bones and i still believe that), i then needed to work on the inside.
so i registered to be coach in the maximum events for young people, i wanted to give back to the community , i needed to share my energy and see if it can impact people.
i realized that sometimes, you try to be helpful and people don;t need it or don;t want it or just are not at the point to understand what you doing .
so i found myself obliged to adapt to every single person i met, and it was hard, sometimes i did not have the best way to manage it, but this is life a continuous learning.
ans suddenly i started receive love back , people asked me for suggestions or advises, people were happy to listening to me.
i have the impostor guilt feeling, what ever i do in my mind was normal and actually was not important, but the image of myself that i got back from every person i met was different from what i so, and at that moment i felt happy to be me.
what ever i did for the students or for the people around made sense, and even if i was exhausted , it was always worth it.

accepting who i am was  my 2018 challenge, when i saw the last speech i have done for the ELIP Connect camp, i think i have succeeded, elhamdoullah

May 2019 be as crazy as 2018 and much more productive!!